:: i LOVE HIM ::

i love u...i love u...i love u....

nobody can take ur place in my heart...

i pray the best 4 u..i'll always...

please be strong ...u have 2, abah..

i really miss the moments we had spent 2gether...
when u were strong 2 do many things...
we went 2 GrandUnion by motorcycle..
we ate roti canai+beriyani ayam madu+teh o ais limau kat Maulana...
we painted my bedroom..
we changed the furniture arrangements of my bedroom..
and that was the last thing we did 2gether b4 this semester started..
after that..u start loosing ur weight..easy 2 get tired...pale..and ur body always getting sweat a lot..

since i'm in ur cares..

u act like u are my biological father(BF)...

u loves me more than my BF did...absolutely..

i love u a lot....thousands times more than i shud luv my BF...

u already took care of me for 22 years.. without any regrets... without any payments...

thanks a lot..abah!

when i'm home..
i wont let myself cry in front of u..
even i was always feel 2 do so..
i pretends like i m strong enough 2 face ur current health condition..
but it is not, actually..
i dun wanna make u sad..

same goes 2 my mum...
she always cried when she talked 2 me(on the phone) bout abah..
she try 2 not cries in front of him...
she is stronger than wut i expecting b4...
she tried 2 give her best 2 entertain abah..2 make him forget about his painful for a moment..


2 all my beloved frens...

please pray the best 4 my abah..
tolong sama2 doakan abah sy..

he is suffering from colon cancer (stage 4-cancer cells spread 2 his liver)..
there is nothing 2 do with it..
except
doing an operation with 50% potential 2 recover..
or doing chemotheraphy which can gives many negative effects..
according 2 abah..
(since he already done 30 times chemo last time when his cancer still in stage 3 n after doing an operation on it)
chemo will make him feel very painful+fatigue+exhausted+dizziness+dry skin+etc...

i dunno wut 2 say..just praying the best 4 him..
let him and others members of my family decide the best 4 him...

for me...baik bg abah, baik la bg sy...

ABAH..sy syg abah sgt2...kuatkn smgt...lawan penyakit abah...
sy sentiasa doakan abah sht mcm slalu...

aku yakin n percaya bhw Allah ade perancangan yg cukup sempurna utk abah dan kami sekeluarga....

sentiasa berpegang dgn kata2..
"stiap yg berlaku ade hikmahnye.."

wassalam...